The hardest thing I’ve ever had to do was forgive someone who was never sorry.

Empathy is a process in which we evaluate another person’s situation and consider multiple perspectives of their feelings, ideas, and circumstances. Understanding and conveying empathetic behavior with an open mindset can take time to manifest. As we all develop emotional awareness from the acculturation processes of our society we develop our own definition, idea, and concept of empathy. Our…

Bucket Lists

As a strong believer of similar beliefs in the Laws of Attraction and the concept “like attracts like” and that by focusing on positive or negative thoughts, one can bring about positive or negative results.  

Manifest your Thoughts into Power

Surrounding my recent study in earlier posts, of how people constructed Bucket Lists as a way to “Float their desires and fantasies into the world.” Similarly to people in my study, I wrote a Bucket List years before as a 3oth Birthday ritual and to my surprise after re-reading my list 2 years after the construction, I was amazed at what had been checked off the list.  

Out of 24 items on my Bucket List 7 things I unknowingly accomplished. With no effort after initial construction of the list.

Just by writing down my Bucket List on paper could I have really started the Laws of Attraction for myself?

10 Day Action Plan

With many of my friends, family,  and people in my life were interested in my concepts, the theory of generating a Bucket List to support the study of the Laws of Attraction.

This becoming a social experiment in relation to Laws of Attraction a study under my own guidelines.  

As I gathered 3 participants, whose lists are posted in earlier blog posts on this site. It is quite an interesting mix of participants. Furthermore, the study is still in its infancy and soon will be examined for any shifts in Positive attributes related to words written on the list.laws of attraction


Affirmations you say… 

what in the world is that?

“Affirmations are short and powerful statements.”

Utilizing the power of affirmation techniques push you towards your greatest desires through conscious thoughts of positivity.  Maintaining a code of standards in which to live by helps positivity gain momentum in your existing world. The momentum of words turned into affirmations or positive thoughts. 

Adding a Variable to the Previous Study⇐⇐⇐⇐ØØ∗⇔∗ØØ⇒⇒⇒ 

Possible correlations with evidence of my Bucket List  study and new understanding of Affirmations, I being theorizing views of Laws and Attraction in conjunction with Affirmations.

 I never really took much time to process the information written on the card below I knew the text was not representational of traditional business cards.

A typically business card shape but with a slightly more inspiring tone, like a form of “Pocket Wisdom” or “Pocket Positivity.” There was no Author or Publication date only the words below:

Affirmations and the Laws of Attractions

 The similarity of the Affirmations and Laws of Attraction with my study of the Bucket Lists, raised new variables to add to the study.  

  • Could Affirmations with specific language engage a goal or a set desire to manifest quicker?  
  • Should there be a formula of Affirmations, such as the 90 Day Action Plan in the theories of the Laws of Attraction?  
  • Could scripted Affirmations, with added emphasis on your written Bucket List  help with the completion of  such written lists?
  • What about a new era “90 Day Bucket Lists” or “Pocket Positivity Business Cards”?

The 90 Day Action Plan has no guidelines or rules so by placing the “Pocket Positivity Cards” in clear view and reading them every day for 90 days, I will float desires, wants, hopes, and dreams into the universe.

The positive thoughts that I am repeating are the basis for how I want to interact with the world. Giving me new ways to manifest my desires already outlined in the previous study of Bucket Lists and Laws of Attraction. 

As I move into my 29th day of the 90 Day Action Plan I want to note how I structured the same Affirmations  on cards in 2 different ways.  So that I can answer some of the questions I addressed earlier. 

  1. I placed one “Pocket Positivity Card” card in the bathroom. Neatly positioned so that any person on the toilet would be forced to read it clearly and easily.  The positive Affirmations I read have known specific desires or goals associated with its presence.
  2. The second “Pocket Positivity Card”,  I put on the refrigerator, eye level has a clear view for easy retrieval of Affirmations.  This study is the second part of the 90 Day Study, with a formulation of language specific Affirmations to positively think about in specific desire. The goal to save money, get money or anything related to an excess of money in my life. I placed symbols of money, magnets in all increments of paper money around the “Pocket Positivity Card”.  When reading the card I tend to add sentences using words or language specific to money and my goals.
Studies show on average we have
 51,000-60,000 thoughts a day,
which breaks down to 
150-300 thoughts per minute.
The Brain acting as search engine,search 
queries are of feelings,emotions,worries, 
memories and consist of both negative and positive thoughts and words.

Inside an Insomniacs Head

The scary part of the
thoughts and the process of the thinking 
brain is 80% of the 
51,000 thoughts a day 
are negative for most 
Research shows 90% of 
those negative thoughts are taken into the 
51,000 thoughts of the 
next day. 

95% of the 60,000 thoughts a person has in a day,are related to 
the same 60,000 thoughts a person had yesterday,and the day 
before and so on. 
With studies on negative thought processes creating a need for 
affirmations, shocking statistics are shaping an un-happy 
society. Research shows 45,000 thoughts a person has out of the 
60,000 thoughts a person has in a day are negative in nature.

“Fifty Shades Of Grey” Video Game

Imagine a ” Fifty Shades of Grey” Erotic Video Game. Could Developers be on the brink of a new interactive fantasy game? Concepts based around BDSM giving gamers a new way to act out fetishes.

In my notebook dated February 26th 2015.  Scribbled in a different color ink obviously having some sort of importance. Written with a clear and legible order, I wrote in big, bold letters:

Fifty Shades of Grey Virtual Video Game”

Fifty Shades of Grey Video Game Developer Needed

I have not read the erotic romance novel by British author E. L. James. Nor have I seen the movie that revenues more than $94 million in ticket sales it’s opening weekend.  So with all the hype around depictions of BDSM, and my own personal experience in the world of submission it seems realistic that people have fetishes regarding BDSM.

Now to understand where my brain is headed on this one you must first realize that Fantasy Video Games are not a new concept to video game developers. Erotic virtual realities have already been introduced when Oculus Rift launched its version of Wicked Paradise.

Making it the first erotic virtual video game of its kind.

What is 50 Shades of Grey had a virtual video game.

Developers could make use of the capabilities of the new Oculus Rift headset giving gamers realistic interactions with sexy avatars created personally by the game user. Instead of just watching the erotic images, users could become fully immersed into the game.  

Now this technology may be criticized by certain groups in society and could be considered crude forms of interactive porn.  Gamers that are engaging in the erotic adventure have controls that allow them to act out sexual fantasies. 

Some same Wicked Paradise is a form of  Virtual reality therapy (VRT), also known as virtual reality immersion therapy (VRIT), simulation for therapy (SFT), virtual reality exposure therapy (VRET),[1] and as computerized CBT (CCBT), is a method of psychotherapy that uses virtual reality technology to treat patients with anxiety disorders and phobias where it has proven very effective.[2][3] It is now one of the primary treatments for PTSD.[3]   Benefits from this form of therapy to me aligns with benefits surrounding masturbation. I believe masturbation a healthy non-destructive way to relieve tension and calm the nerves.

So could a Fifty Shades of Grey Erotic Virtual Video game help men and women explore fantasies that exist within out sexually deviant minds? 

Imagine developers allowing gamers to create BDSM dungeons with all the erotic features including whips, chains, ropes and blind-folds.  Fifty Shades of Grey Video Game

Adventures carried out by Mr. Grey giving access to new and exciting sexual positions such as the “Angry Dragon” and codes that unlock fantasies like the “Donkey Punch” or “The Bronco. ”

Gamers have total access to settings allowing for avatars to engage in sexually explicit fetishes to gain experience points.  With every new level with dirtier more advanced submission positions.  Giving the gamer deeper insight to the underground worlds of BDSM. Unlocking codes to create a Sexual Playground unique to your own desires and fantasies.  Fifty Shades of Grey Invention

Sex dungeons complete with robotic dildos, suspension chains and contraptions used to create Pleasure and Pain. Avatars with the ability to have a orgasim and to squirt when proper cheats are entered throughout the game.   Developers have endless possibilities as long as their minds are as dirty.

I guess it is only a matter of finding a worthy developer that loves bondage and wants to create this fantasy world where Mr. Grey becomes interactive.

Insomnia Toxins

December 2014

Pressure persists in my mind. Filling all the areas of the quiet streams with rushing, circular whirlpools. Circling around and around, overflowing into each thought in my head. The new thought causing an intensely emotional and unpredictable feeling. The information is processing at rapid speeds keeping me up all night.

Now morning is here. I can’t concentrate on this thing called sleep. I can;t focus on anything. I am tired and sick from the thought of being tired. Stimuli I gather is entering my brain-mind interface. Triggers are causing the rollercoaster in my brain to speed and de-rail with each turn. A faint static sound is buzzing in my right ear. The pulsating nerves in my eyeballs dances with the noise.  Becoming more prominent. The busy morning rush hour has a distinct sound when my insomnia is in control. Tires make a sound of air echoing as they come to a quick stop at the corner outside my window.

Has my body become infected with toxins of worry?

Is there a place for insomniac woman?

7:39 A.M.          August 20 2014

So I cant sleep and I have sever concentration problems at night while my angel sleeps next to me. I sit quietly bouncing from app to app on my tablet, but still remain awake restless at mind.
I  start to think of everything I should be doing or could be doing. Housework, computer work, anything but technology, but feeling as I have, life just seemed depressing.

Mind paceing through my brain of every simple thing I do to calm down and relax for those people who struggle with insomnia.

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