Awake Alone Again

Saturday September 20,2014

So my story still so eagerly to unfold, with mounds of written ideas and thoughts from years of insomniac-tic behavior. 32 years old, feeling as if my mind is overloaded with urges from trigger words. The words spoke in conversation among people, either friends, or unknown spectators. These trigger words are some form of irritant bringing up anger, jealousy or completely making you smile and laugh. So for me an insomniac woman with a trigger word can cause serious brain overload.

So, unconcerned with proper grammar or punctuation. I will ramble but clearly for my whole purpose. Well and honestly I can’t”\’t find a speech to text app to download to .http://insomniacwomanwordress.com

So I can’t sleep again and it could be the over whelming notion that I am to much for my own brain to handle. I cant stop circling all my thoughts, dissecting each angle feeling each outcome. It’s torture on my brain. Growing up and slowly realizing my faults, made it easier to manage.

Sleeping was a heavenly dream as I aged. So blah,  Coping hasn’t always been easy.

I think, think, think until I am blue. I can’t possibly get all the information out to you or to anyone. I want so much to have a clone to be each one of me I know I can be.

I often ask people I meet “If you can have one thing to help you in life what would it be?

now keep in mind if anyone reading this has ever been in my presence….ummm……well I’v heard I’m to aggressive, rude, forcing people to step outside there comfort zone.

Maybe that’s why I am Alone and Awake. I can’t concentrate on any one topic. I have ideas every 3 seconds.

4 thoughts on “Awake Alone Again”

  1. You are alone for I am unknown to you your search for me spins your
    circle in to the spiral that takes you away then draws you near blindness
    as we pass on the street am I the older younger richer poorer insane color blind my key is the only one that fits your lock your body your mind the creation that creates you will you surrender to me now or remain clouded in doubt misery longing even for lust that leaves only emptiness this is the time I am near will you surrender I may not return in time to transform and save you another day are you ready at first I will discust you but slowly my skills to sew new light into your soul warmth in your belly gleam in your eyes elevate your head make you whole for the first time but your absolute surrender must be freely given so enough words this side of what you call life the choice is yours

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